A poem greater then my own
Spread upon my tongue
Won’t hide my jealousy
Instead I show it well spent
Rant and raving
Words I am craving
Written by another hand
Told by another soul
Can’t help the envy deep inside
Can’t help the rage I want to hide
Words already spoken
Already spread
Just wish it had come from my own head
She looked at me with tears in her eyes. wipped them away and told me goodbye. Told me to visit, whenever I could. I like to believe that deep down inside, she knew I never would.
I always hated to lie to her but I could not stand those tears. So I turned away, pretend smile on my face, and told her, I’ll be by again some day.
I wonder if she knew I wouldn’t do it. If she was faking to for the sake of things. The past that we shared and the future she hoped I had.
She just wanted me to be happy.
She cried and tried to hug me.
Wanted me to be happy despite the path I was walking.
I wish I could see her now. Tell her, “thank you for pretending”, but I won’t.
I never will.
I never liked to see her cry, though her tears where always so pretty.
Still I want to see her and tell her thanks for believing.
She told me she loved me. I do not believe it was a lie. She may have been mistaken but she truly believed she loved me. I do not really know why.
What is there to love about me?
What could she see?
What part of me made her never want to leave?
I never bothered to ask her. Though now I wished I did.
Maybe if I cared enough to have ask, she wouldn’t have wound up dead.
Not my fault really; though I didn’t try.
When the wash women cried; I did nothing to save her life.
I knew it would happen. I was there when it did.
Yet I stood there as events unfolded.
Stood there until she was dead.
I wonder why she loved me…when I couldn’t love myself .
Guess this something I will never know.
Since sinners burn in hell .
A/N
I love writing but there are times I make mistakes. Especially when I am trying out a new style of writing. I wanted this to be a sort of ballad. I regret to say that this is not it. I was never good at paying attention to poetry rules. I like freestlye best. I want to learn though.
So if anybody out there reading this wants to add some feedback. It would help a ton.
I don’t have a lot of followers now seeing as I still fairly new to this.
Still, never hurts to ask.
Sidenote: I failed nearly every Grammar test I ever took. If I happened to pass it; it was only because I didn’t bother to study and just winged it. Winging it got me better grades then when I studied.
So if there are errors know that it is because I tried to go back and edit things.
Even sider note. I don’t any clue to what writing style this is so feel free to provide links.
Heart beat then it’s gone
Take a breath
breathe, breathe
Forget it all
March around like you don’t have a song
Flowers falling
People dying
That’s what’s up
Make believe it is all ok
Just another day
Just another way
Fight me on this, I’m ok
Heart beats beats beats
As I run
Face reality pretend it’s gone
People lying children crying
That’s ok
Cause in my mind it’s a blank slate
Music up and thoughts are down
Want to care but don’t know how
Put a smile up and face the day
It’s alright
It will be ok
Think of something as cops go by
Someone else has taken their own life
That’s alright
Ignore it all
Forget the light
Music up and thoughts are down
Want to care but don’t know how
Put a smile up and face the day
It’s all ok
It’s not me never me can’t be me
Please stop this burning need
Make a lie turn away blind
Ignore the suffering that’s outside
Music up and thoughts are down
Want to care but don’t know how
Can’t do this on my own
Reality doesn’t feel like home
Shut it out
Welcome bliss
A sanity won’t be missed.
I am afraid
NIGHTMARE FANTASY 