I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. 

I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. 

I hate it
I hate my body.
The world does to.
Magazines lie to me, telling me that my body shouldn’t bring me shame.
Toss it all up and wait a few days.
Cause if you take a bite , you will gain even more weight.
Look at the fatass giving a go.
Look at that fatass trying to make her goal.
She isn’t worth it.

She will fail.

They don’t know that, she is burning in hell.

Day in and day out, I hate myself.

I ate out today. I haven’t been able to eat in awhole. Not unless others made it. Not unless I could heat it up. I got hungry though. I ate something..and now I want it gone. I want to get rid of it. I am a horrible person. I am disgusting. No wonder no one loves me. No wonder no one answers my phone calls when I need them. No wonder I am alone. No wonder I am hated. I deserve it. I am disgusting. I can’t stand the lies people tell me.
I am NOT pretty. Stop trying to change the subject. I am a fat ugly blob.
Why can’t I be more like her. 

She is pretty. 

Everyone loves her. 

Why can’t I be more like that. 

Why can’t I matter. 

 I just want to matter. 

To someone…anyone. 

I don’t want to be alone anymore.

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