A/N for some odd reason this posted as a blank page. So lets see if we can try this again.
I wanted to hurt you
So I wouldn’t be alone
Wanted to make you hate
So I wouldn’t do it on my own
I ignored all the signs
That said you where near your end
In my rush to find a like minded friend
I destroyed what made you good
I just wanted someone beside me
Who would suffer as I did
I didn’t see it as a problem
I felt that, overtime, our pain would solve them
I didn’t see you gasp for help
Was to busy cutting you like everyone else
As you lay bleeding in my image
I felt that we could win this
What a terrible friend was I
To live you alone to die
I just wanter you to suffer
Wanted you like no other
But I never wanted to be alone
Friend…a person who is with you till the end but isn’t afraid to leave you if need be.
It is the one word I need to hear more then anything. For someone to call me friend.
For someone to not tell me they love me, but that they care for me enough to try. I rather not listen to the ‘I love you lie’
I have many people I know who care. But it is not enough. I am still missing something. See everyone who cares is far away. I can’t see their faces and know what they say is true. I just want someone to hold me close. To poke my sides when I am sad. To laugh at me and even with me. I can be funny you know. I can be silly. I can be kind. I can be smart.
I just want someone to share it with.
I want a
They don’t need to love me.
Just cherish my company.
Not to tell me they love me, but that one day soon, they could.