I truly do hate winter
As complicated as it may seem I do not want to do anything anymore. At the same time I want to get better. My emotions are all over the place. Nothing seems to make sense. Maybe it is the weather. It keeps me inside and gives me an excuse to grieve. But I am warm. So very warm and so very alone. Maybe what I am doing is finding excuses but they are what keep me going.
NIGHTMARE FANTASY 
I stay mostly indoors all Winter.I used to wonder what was wrong with me. I felt much the same as you. Now I know, not a damn thing. I view it as the natural progression of the year. ANimals hibernate, it just makes sense that we- animals as well- will feel inclined to do so too. Rest. Spring will come.