I am in college now. I figured things would be easy but I forgot just how depression works. Every encouraging word is met with a voice telling me that I am fucking up. How do I explain to people that what they say is nice but mt brain won’t let me except it.
My professor flagged my profile and talked about what a wonderful job I was doing. But I couldn’t…I couldn’t accept it.
I feel like such a failure. I do not have anyone I can talk about this with. Not to say I haven’t tried but everyone has their own problems to work through.
I want to self harm like crazy but I can’t. I don’t want my daughter disappointed in me. The urge is getting louder. I do not know how much time I have before I just give in or blow up.
I wish I could wrap you up in care and soothe you until feel okay, but I can’t. All I have to offer is love and understanding from the other side of the world. ❤ ❤ ❤
I wish it amounted to something more useful to you than just words.
I am doing better now. It was kind of rough for a while there but I am ok. Even though there are times I hurt regardless of kind words people give me they still matter. I am grateful every comment and advice given to me.
Love to you dear Zeannaroux. ❤ Glad to hear you're doing better now.
How have you been doing? I hadn’t heard from you in quiet some time. I hope all is well.
I’ve been a little unwell for a while, but things are getting better lately. Thank you so much for your care, my friend. 🙂 And thank you for following too! ❤
Haha I didn’t know that I hadn’t followed you beforehand. Sorry for that. I had thought I did.
I am sorry you have been unwell but am happy to hear that you have been getting better. I look forward to reading your post.
I hadn’t noticed either, I guess it didn’t matter.
But may I say that now you have, I’m very very flattered. 🙂
^-^ well for awhile there I was worried cause I hadn’t heard from you but didn’t know how to check up on you. I am glad I have a way now. I have a friend who is currently making a blog and I will make sure to show them your page as well, if you do not mind that is.
That’s so sweet of you, Zeannaroux. ❤ And I'd be glad to meet your friend. 🙂