Make me bleed
Do you hate the world
As much as you hate me?
Is that what made you leave
Why you didn’t say goodbye
Is that the reason
You took your own life
Did I make you suffer?
Cause you to much pain?
Is that the reason decided to leave that day
Did it hurt?
Did you cry?
How did it feel when you decided to die?
I bet you wanted me to feel so sad?
Was it all apart of you plan
I bet you wanted me to feel so alone?
Did you mean to be gone so long?
What made you decide that it was ok
To bloody yourself beyond repair?
Did you assume that I would care?
What was flowing through your mind?
Did you want the world to leave me behind?
What made you do it?
Was it truly me?
You are dead now
But are you really free?
As I have stated before, I am actually pretty suicidal. To help combat that I write poems written as though I have died. It helps me see reality so to speak.
I feel the need to explain this one a bit just because of how uncomfortable it can make people. This is part of my stages of grief stories but in this one the person who is dead is trying to figure out why they did it. When they ask themselves if they hate the world then they do themselves they are basically saying that instead of living and punishing the world they jusf decided to end themselves.
There are so many routes this person could have taken and they settled on the final one. I may habe to rewrite this cause I just yawned and confused myself.