Quickly now
Bow your heard
Always pray before you go to bed
Remember that, God loves you
He will never leave
God is watching over you
Even when you dream

But what if your dreams, are not how they were foretold to be
What if they are filled with disgusting imagery?

Every night, I lost my soul
Watched it go
In my head
Sleeping was hell
I burned inside
Begged to be killed
Cause behind my eyes, as I dreamed, I watched my child being taken from me.

Each day she faded
Each day she died
When I woke up
Her cries where a lie
“This isn’t my child”
“She died before taking a breathe”
“This isn’t my child, but…”

Everyday I give birth anew.
Forced to remember a child I was eventually going to lose.
Protect her from my dreams I hold her away from me.

Made a plan…
Checked it twice..
Thrice…
Again

Again

I had a plan.

But…
I couldn’t never follow through with it.
Each day remembered the child I bore.
Had to learn to love her once more
Cause when I dreamed
Reality twisted and joined with terrors.
I dreamed that I had lost her forever.

“This isn’t my child”
“She never was…but my heart..it aches…please help me”